Yes, this! Exactly this. Thank you, rainbow (and rainbow's T) for capturing it so perfectly

I feel completey over-run by all these 'parts' I didn't even know I had until recently. It is utterly disconcerting. I feel like an empty shell, filled one minute with the need of the vulnerable child, the next minute with the rage of the angry child, the next by the punishing thoughts of the punitive parent, and the next by the deadness of the detached protector. I feel like what I thought was 'me' has suddeny shattered into pieces and they don't fit together. I literally see myself 'flipping' from mode to mode, moment to moment, and this is the worst fairground ride I've ever ridden

Like you say rainbow, the aim of schema therapy is to strengthen the healthy adult. She's the one who looks after the the vulnerable child, sets limits for the angry child, moderates the detached protector and banishes the punitive parent.

But at the moment, the others are louder and stronger. They jostle for prime position. They whisper seductively in each other's ears. They shout each other down. And I (who is the 'I'?) must just ride this out, I think. This is that uncomfortable stage I experienced in DBT too- the stage where I can see what is happening but can't yet change it...