I did feel abandoned by my mother when she passes away plus the fact I never worked through processing her death. I walked in to find my mom dead. It flipped my world forever!! My family has no clue of my mental health issues which started to escalate after my mother's passing. I feel an unbelievable amount of guilt for abandoning my grandmother when she needed me the most she had alzheimers and her last memories was me walking away. I tried over the yrs to call and she how she was doing and my family would either hang up on me or say hurtful things which would take me a long time to work the courage to call again only to be beat down all over. That was a never ending cycle for 6 yrs.

My family didnt tell me my grandmother passed away nor did I get to go to the funeral because I am the bad granddaughter who ran away