Hi everybody,

I'm really struggling with wanting to drink and numb out for a few days which I know would be a spectacularly stupid and dangerous idea. But I'm under incredible stress - job hunting, selling my stuff, finding a place to live etc. that I can kind of feel a coming crisis if I don't do something, I'll either relapse again and drink to dangerous levels or I'll attempt SU and wind up dead or on the psych ward. None of these are desireable outcomes.

I go to groups 3 X a week already at my rehab, they're just not the core IOP program. I was talking about how I was feeling with my nurse at group on Fri. and she suggested I think about going back into the IOP program for a while for the extra support and counselling it provides.

I had another group today and said I'd like to do it, and my addictions Dr. was all over it - she wanted me to start tomorrow LOL. But I have a lot of morning appointments this week and it's a morning program.

So I'm starting it on Mon. It's half days a week, 5 days a week, for 10 weeks. I'm not sure I'm going to do the full 10 weeks - I was thinking more like 6 maybe, but I'll see.

This will be rehab trip #5 for me, but at least I'm going into it knowing I need help but before I've reached the crisis point.

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