[quote=anxiety247;2193795]I did feel abandoned by my mother when she passes away plus the fact I never worked through processing her death. I walked in to find my mom dead. It flipped my world forever!! My family has no clue of my mental health issues which started to escalate after my mother's passing. I feel an unbelievable amount of guilt for abandoning my grandmother when she needed me the most she had alzheimers and her last memories was me walking away. I tried over the yrs to call and she how she was doing and my family would either hang up on me or say hurtful things which would take me a long time to work the courage to call again only to be beat down all over. That was a never ending cycle for 6 yrs.

My family didnt tell me my grandmother passed away nor did I get to go to the funeral because I am the bad granddaughter who ran away [/quote

Well...it sounds like your fam could use some help of their own. You did your best. It's up to them now. But the sucky part of the deal is, you have to be good either way.