You have met many if the criteria. For BPD, but the are several conditions that overlap in symptoms. The only way to be certain if you have BPD is to talk to your T or your Pdoc if you have one. my T was the one who brought it to my attention and read the criteria, I tried to blow some of them off so I wouldn't qualify but the more she discussed it and the moe independent research I did I had to agree. Pschcebtrsl has some great links but I dint recommend selfdiagnosing yourself. This is something your going to want to review with a professional. Peace and goodwill!