i dont really know whats wrong but i really feel like im just now living a normal life.
i get mad easily, and i cry a lot about simple things that make me feel angry or depressed. i dont like anybody seeing me cry because they ask whats wrong and i dont even know what i feel.
i dont like loud noises they make me really angry. i rather talk to myself then to anybody else because nobody seems to understand what i feel.
i feel like im being watched or like im in some kind of movie and everyone is just acting, this happens only sometimes.
i sometimes think im going crazy because i feel sad and i act happy or im happy but i act sad.
ive thought about suicide but im just not able to let go like that because i really believe in God.
im scared to die in pain i imagine so many ways to die when i feel in danger wich is most of the time.
im nervous all the time i feel tired like wanting to sleep all the time, i feel like i dont exist and sometimes i feel like i do.

im a total mess. although ive never had problems with my family like fights and stuff ive been really lonely.