That is very right PurpleFlyingMonkeys, In all three major relationships in my life I was always the one giving the most emotionally. My first wife was caught up in here career, my second wife was caught up making sure everyone else thought she was wonderful, and the last lady was just a taker who wanted everything her own way. All three were very controling people.
I have gravitated towards strong willed women admiring their strength. Only to find myself getting lost in the relationship. I know that is also my fault because I let it happen, was not strong enough. Took the easy way and let them make all the decisions.
So i have to change myself, learn to like my own company and find someone who is no so domineering.