Well its monday and she stated that yesterday at the movies with the kids one young and one old she was done and she could be out by the end of the week. It was quite a bomb to drop at the movie theater. My older stated being sassy to her and stating that she might have a better idea of her dad was not the only one talking to her. She only has my side of the story. That got the party started between them with me in the middle trying to keep the peace. We had a great converstion the day before about future plans paying off the older ones car and some credit debt. Making a real game plan. I asked her about it in the theater her response was yeah I am making plans to pay this stuff off so I can leave free and clear. Thats when it really hit me. She has a plan and she is going to carry it out. I was in shock. I truely did not believe she was serious until that moment. I sat and watched the movie to my credit I did not cry I just was told my soul mate was leaving me. The ride home was quite and I came home and my body fell apart. I have been so weak staying up late and worring not eating. Illness just took over. I took a hot shower and put some sweats on and sat in the recliner and watched TV nothing really. She came over to talk to me. About nothing really and to be honest I dont know if I even heard her. I am sure I answered. A couple min later I got up to get some cider and she started talking about money and what the state of affairs are and wants me to be included in the finances. I have not really been in 20 years she has always done it. I said that I would like that. She asked my opinion on some things but she was using the work WE alot. How much are we going to be comfortable with in savings. What are we going to to about this or that. And here is the part that sticks out. She wants me involved in the finances so that IF things go wrong I will know where everything is at. IF IF. After that she told me about work and the people that work there. We talked about that we dont eat dinner at home anymore. She said she should cook more she likes to cook. I sat and took it in. Commenting on some things. Being sick know she started locking up the house and said its time to put you to bed so you feel better. We got in bed and she turned the tv on and kept talking to me. I took some meds and I was fighting to keep my eyes open. I wanted to hear everyword. She said you look exasuted and its ok that I go to sleep will the tv bother you. I said I dont think so and turned over to go to sleep. In the night she reached over to check if I was in the bed by grabbing my shoulder. I dont get it If she wants to leave me then why all of a sudden a complete change in mood. Thats why I am thinking Bipolar.
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