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Originally Posted by Rosie23
I felt abandoned when my husband died too. I was so mad at him for leaving me here all alone. At times I was down right furious with him. Not something that anyone would have understood. And as unreasonable as I knew I was being I couldn't help it.
It has taken almost 3 years for me to begin to move beyond that. And to learn why.
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My mom held the family together. I tried my hardest to live up to her after her passing. I let down my mothers wishes when she said to me and I didn't want to really think about it "take care or your grandmother" if something happens to me. She was 46 yrs old when she died suddenly. I let them both down.. Now I have no where to run...its in my face everyday....i have hurt myself every way imaginable - punishing myself. I know they want me to stop hurting myself - forgive myself - and get the help I need..and start facing the past...idk