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The thing is, I was so young when my Dad committed suicide, I didn't really understand it.
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Oh ok.
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As far as I knew, my Foster Dad was my Dad and then my Adoptive Dad was my Dad. But then it started to get confusing as to why my Foster Dad wasn't my Dad anymore, does that make sense?
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Yes, I can see how confusing that must have been.
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he said something that struck a chord and got me to say how I was actually feeling.
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That's great. It's not easy revealing our true selves. Good for you!
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.. He just has a lot of stress at work, has his own stuff to deal with and isn't really sure how to help me... I understand that now.
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That is great communication.
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I hate lying to him about how I'm really feeling, or keeping it from him, but I just don't want to pile it on him and make him stressed at home... Home is meant to be a place to relax, chill out and feel happier, more comfortable.
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You are very considerate. Yet, besides being a sanctuary, home can also be a place where you can be yourself, to let it all hang out. It doesn't have to be drama, can just be talking to each other. His stresses, your stresses..might even deepen your bond?
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I'll be seeing my GP and a Pdoc about it because I know I need more help than I'm allowing myself...
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You are on the right path, just keep trying. I wish you well.
