I don't know if she was judging it CE, was she? Its therapy where feelings are explored, I'd never tought about it in other way then I was loving my mother, but if there's more significance I want to know. I guess I am lucky I didn't become totally pyschotic and begin cutting the throats of womwn acting out this distorted love. I mean pysco killers start from something they become accustomed to as 'normal' and its only outside in the wider community does it reveal itself as distorted. Well that was went through my mind once I'd spoken about it. Yes there were feelings of love but then I began to remember there was an underlying rage too, that is what I wouldn't feel.