Candy, I think you said it, this is part of your deepest fears. Think that our fears seem to come up in our dreams. It's like our brain's are trying someway to work the fear out.

I think you did a great job of posting. Took a lot of courage to do. Think there are many of us who have that same fear. I have the same fear. Maybe by writing this fear out it can make it smaller.

Monty