You are not alone. I feel EXACTLY the same way, I think there are many people that do. I'm sorry you feel that no one would want to read what you have to say, but I do. I care about what you have to say because you are a person, just like me or anyone else. I too feel like I will never be happy; don't know what it is, never been happy my entire life. I'm sorry but I don't know that there is an answer, I am still trying to find out what I am supposed to do. But I am alive and I'm right there with you. There has got to be something more to life than this.