My take on it: You are trying to trust your T and I like Anne's interpretation of how you have been lumping her in with your abusers. I see it as you trying to work through trusting her. Your reflex is to not trust her.

Or maybe also, getting better requires working through this stuff, thus, bringing it up and out and feeling the feelings. You might see this as abusive, so therefore, see your T as being abusive.