The "Depersonalization Disorder" page sent me here, so I'm sorry if this is the wrong place.

Now I know something is, not working right in my head. I don't want to be that person that wants to be labeled, but at the same time without exploring what could be wrong with me, I'm not getting anywhere. I'm unable to function in life very well, never have been, so what better time then now to try to find a way to help myself.

P.S. I realize this isn't a substitute for going to a professional, but I don't feel comfortable going to one at the moment, for I don't know exactly what's not normal. What is it about me, that makes me not function and be able to life like everyone else.

Borderline Personality Disorder, and Depersonalization Disorder, are two Disorders I've read up on that I can relate to the most.

And I guess I just want someones opinion on what I experience that I relate to as "Depersonalization".

I have these moments alot, where I'm talking, yet i feel out of body, like i'm not saying it. It's usually when i'm saying something that i'd never say, such as excessive anger, or showing a sense of grandeur (sp?).

I also have a lot of thoughts in my head, and things i hear in my head that don't seem like things i'd think of or say. Also i deal with a lot of anxiety in social situations and have the poorest self esteem ever, but that's whatever, unimportant.

Oh one more thing I wanted to add, I have a lot of memories, that i don't totally relate with. Like it's not mine, like i can't remember being there... that sounds totally weird cause then how would i have that memory, but I have no better way of explaining it...

Anyways any input on if you can relate, or possibly direct me to place/section I should look at, would be greatly appreciated. Thanks