I'm super ultra pissy today. Day one is rough. I just wrote out a list of all of the reasons I don't want to smoke cuz I'm having cravings, and as I'm writing I'm thinking "These aren't even good reasons. I don't even care about my skin, or my teeth, and I'm not ready to fully confront my emotions!!! I want a cigarette!!!"

I got a job today, too, so I'm extra stressed. I start tomorrow doing housekeeping at a hotel. I've never had this type of job before. I want a cigarette.