Hey, all... The big scary moment has come. My school counselor wants me to get analyzed. She think's I'm depressed. Well, great, I guess it's not all in my head... but that doesn't help the nervousness. I mean, being in a prolonged mental rut is a LOT different than being diagnosed as depressed... there's so many people I'm afraid I'll disappoint, afraid they'll judge me, afraid for the people who have looked up to me and will suddenly realize I'm not the dependable, stand-like-a-rock person they think I am... I'm so afraid they'll overreact and forget the person I've tried to be until now. Also afraid they'll think I'm giving up, when all I want is a little help in the most crucial part of my life that I desperately don't want to screw up. (high school) My mom is very against meds, because my older sis was on ADHD pills for a long time growing up, but it really changed her personality until just recently she got off them. I'm afraid her feelings on that will cause her to overreact to this...
On the bright side, now is a better time than ever to ask for help. My dad is in an awesome mood b/c something that was weighing his mind (and all our minds) for months has been lifted. I have a meeting with my counselor tomorrow, and a physical Thursday. (which as of now is unrelated, but these kind of things, you want to bring up to a doctor, right?)
I guess I need a little advice on how to do this... I don't know if it will be me or my counselor telling my parents about the concerns, but either way i know I'll get talked too... I have NO idea how they'll react, but I can tell it will NOT be mild either way. Any pros who can pass me some gems of wisdom? I could really use it.
Thanks, guys.
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