I have an interpretation of this dream, but remember: I'm not you, I don't know much about you, I know nothing about CSA, and I have no qualifications.

IGNORANT FANTASY:

Obviously "working through" these horrible events in your past is very painful, and a big part of you doesn't want to do it.

This part, a young part, a hurt part, is saying to T: "Why are forcing me to relive this? Why weren't you there to prevent it?"