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Originally Posted by TheQuietOnexx
thanks for replying.
I think that right at this moment I am doing okay.
the reason the admission was organized is because I feel like I'm just holding it together while my friends here and that I'll fall apart as soon as she leaves. I have to hold it together while she's here cuz I can't loose her as a friend.
I feel like I'm hanging by a thread.
it's almost as though I feel okay because I know soon (when she leaves) it won't matter. everything will be over.
I spent like $500 today on **** I didn't need. but it doesn't matter. I don't care.
I called the crisis team and she suggested I wait till my appt tomorrow to decide. it makes sense. I'm pretty sure that going to the appt means hospital because my therapist will put me in. I was going to try and write down what's been happening to show her but idk.
I'm thinking I should not even go to the appt. she can't do anything then.
once I'm in they never let me out till they decide.
I just want to take them then curl up with my cat and then everything will be fine.
I think I'm crazy. but that doesn't matter because it makes me feel safe knowing they understand.
numb. empty.
whatever.
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seems you have pressures from others, mum and your cousin that doesn't help. This is for you....and only you, or... this isn't for you...and only you.
I'm not gonna go on about the "your friend likes you anyway bit"...because we don't know how to trust those things hey?...even when it's true!
I was going to ask if they decide when you can leave...no doubt you are worried about that but it's really not important today QuietOne. it's not.
What did you mean "take them and curl up with the cat?"..I hope it's not what it sounds like!!...please? I hope I mis-understand what you wrote there?
You spoke about this situation with your friend coming up some days ago now...and the time has come and you have every right to be nervous and feel all over the place.
This admission is not being arranged because you are crazy. It is purely to offer support and a safe place for you during this time in your life...please go to the appointment QuietOne. I have skipped out on many such appointments and just ended up needing more serious ones later on...
sometimes it's good to buy **** you don't need because then you can't get dis-appointed when ya don't know what the heck to do with it!!
