I think you know what I meant about curling up with the cat..

I know I need to do it for me. but I don't want to fight with my family.

I know I shouldn't skip the appt.

I'm just so scared that I'll go in and stay safe but then nothing will get any better. I can't cope with nothing getting better.

the dr the other day sounded like she thought nothing would ever get better.

I'm not sure I can take it.

I am crazy. the voices. the laughing.

I don't want to do this. it needs to end. or it all will.

thankyou for replying, it means alot.