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Originally Posted by ECHOES
Perhaps the email was true at the time, and since that time MT returned to working part time? Many people retire then find they don't want to be retired after all.
So, you cancelled because you are angry with your T?
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You know, I have thought about this ALOT. I am not sure why I cancelled and that is why I am struggling here.
I think, in part, I did cancel because I am angry with T. A much bigger part, wants to protect myself.
I am not scared of my T, he won't intentionally hurt me. In fact, he has disappointed and hurt me several times in the past. It's ok, really. He's not perfect and neither am I. I really don't know what I am protecting myself from? Me, maybe?
I am confused about what IS true and what isn't.
Maybe, finding this out is what scares me? IDK.
I think my biggest fear is ME....and my ability to sabotage this relationship, one I truly do cherish. I don't know, EXACTLY.
I believe I am just trying to talk myself away from the edge of this cliff.