I am worried I have completely gone around the bend and may be getting odder due to therapy. That t I see managed to injure herself in an off-therapy incident and so cancelled appointment this week. I am oddly disgruntled over the situation. I don't feel she did it at me. I am not worried she will die or retire from this (or no more than usual given her age and propensity for self-destruction in daily activities), I don't enjoy going to see her, I don't find her warm or nurturing, I usually leave frustrated and or enraged. So what is the deal with me? I don't mean I would usually rejoice in someone else's injury, but the disgruntled response is unusual. I did not turn down any outside work because it conflicted with the appointment - so it is not that her late notice cost me anything and in fact made my day less hectic. Next week is still up in the air while she decides (and this is not unreasonable given the extent of the injuries) whether it would be prudent to be off another week. I am unsettled even though I know if something comes up on my end, I would simply tell her I cannot make the appointment. I certainly hope this is not the sort of change brought on by therapy. I do not like it.