if it bothers you to think that you might care about T just a little , maybe you could decide that yr feelings are self protection only, in the sense that you don't want to have to start over with some other T. That's an indication anyway that you are committed to the work, which is important. but ya know, would it be so bad if you minded someone you know getting hurt? not so bad huh?

just curious, what is this ? >> given her age and propensity for self-destruction in daily activities
that sounds like yr T is a little klutzy ?