...and I am very unhappy.

I should be happy, shouldn't I. I'm fine, absolutely normal. Nothing is wrong with me.

They are wrong.

They are planning things behind my back, when he was typing away on his computer..going to get them all on me. Have me locked away, telling me I am fine.

I'm NOT OKAY.

I don't like the way I am feeling. I get anxious and scared when I can't do my compulsions, terrible thoughts, false memories, need for constant reassurance, multiple compulsions, hallucinations, delusions, dissociation, paranoia, disordered thinking, mood swings and more which I have since the age of seven.

I don't want anything wrong with me, obviously, but I refuse to believe I am fine. How am I fine? It's ok to self harm? It's ok to see rats and demons who talk to me? It's ok to feel like this reality does not exist? It's ok to think that if I stare at someone for long enough, I can telepathically communicate with them? It's ok to constantly get scared when you hear a siren, thinking they are after you? It's ok to think everyone hates you and wants to hurt you? It's ok to get this voice telling you to hit whn you become angry for no reason? It's ok to constantly ask for reasurrance for things no one else cares about? It's ok to think people can read my thoughts and are controlling me all the time? It's ok to feel like I am slipping fom this reality with no hold at all? It's ok to have disgusting thoughts which make you feel suicidal? It's ok to hear a mumble/whispering in your ear? It's ok to smell and taste things that no one else can?

Is it?