Hi Bear
What you are experiencing regarding identity is something that I experience from time to time, especially if I am meeting with insiders whom I have never met before. Sometimes insiders are out and I am the one in my head trying to call myself back but no one can hear me- if that makes any sense, though this only tends to happen with some REALLY strong insiders who have still to do some work on themselves.
The only thing that works for me, cause heck it can be so disorientating, is trying to remember that everythng in life is relatively transient and that everything eventually evolves. What this means for me, is that one day I am a crumpled heap at the bottom of my own feet and the next day I am standing in my own shoes and doing what I need to do to keep this thing called life going.
Everything shifts and evolves, its helpful for me to remember this especially when experiencing heavy *****.
I KNOW you will get there, you have taken the first step in unravelling it all by posting here

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Thinkin of you
Storm