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blossommayflower27 · Jan 18, 2012, 04:24 PM

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Originally Posted by Lost_In_Thought

I feel very leery about posting here. I have an issue with disclosing the fact that I am DID. I am not ashamed, it's just that most people just don't understand or even believe DID is real. So I have to be cautious.

I spend 99% of my days hiding that there are others inside. It's very hard work, it takes all my strength and it's very emotionally and physically draining. In saying that, hopefully whoever reads this will understand how hard it is for me to even post here, about this subject, and be gentle...

But, that's kind of beside the point of this thread. I just wanted to throw that out there because I'm afraid of being judged or anything...

Anyway, today my T said that I will never be able to have any kind of control unless I get to know everyone that's in my system. When I asked how I am supposed to do that, he said he didn't know.

I am really,really trying to get to know everyone, but I am not making very much progress. And I feel so frustrated and discouraged with the whole thing and I feel like giving up.

It would be much easier if they all just announced themselves. But that's not the case, so I'm really not sure what to do.

Any ideas or suggestions?

Firts off...(((*HUGS*)))to you...I want you to know that i am very eager to write this to you...bear with me here...for we are writing on a whim and may not make much sense...we have do exactly what you just described and i am honestly just starting to come to terms that i have others within...as some of us call them...we know that we can soo relate to you and what you are dealing with...and my T keeps telling me that it takes a lot of time, practice, and a lot of work to get to know all of your parts...we are currently in the process of admitting that we have DID...and that the abuse even happened...we have been hiding for soo long it seems as though we have been in a "coma" of sorts...now what i am getting at is in T...we are working on a callaboration of somekind...where i am identifying and reexamining...their purpose and how they feel, what their story is...etc...so i ask them all...if they would be willing to come out and make or write something that is all of their own...and so far i am learning a lot about me and my parts...and its an effective way for us all to come out and still be partly in control...we really hope that this makes sense to you...if not feel free to PM me any questions you have...i feel a lot that what i write does not make much sense to other people who read it...but i suppose the main reason i wrote this is because...i totally understand and i can very much so relate to what you are saying...because i have had to hide this for soo long...and trust me...you are not alone at all!!!well take care and we really hope that this helps you...sending warm and safe (((*HUGS*)))