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sounds like your relationship with your therapist is very important to you, but it also sounds like you depend on her a lot. Perhaps you are stronger and more independent than you give yourself credit for???
out of interest, what's EMDR stand for?
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Yes, my relationship with my T is very important to me and yes, I suppose I do depend on her a lot. I also agree that I am probably stronger and more independent than I give myself credit for. But strong feelings often hit me when I leave the session (not always) and then I fall apart. I feel like I can't function and have nothing to live for, which is totally and absolutely untrue. I'm not sure why I feel that way. Abandonment issues, maybe.
EMDR: I forgot to look up what the letters stand for, something about eye movement desensitization, but I forgot what the "R" stands for. It's a method of treating trauma or places people get stuck in their lives, by alternating eye movements, sounds or vibrations. I wear headphones and hold vibrating buzzers. My T and I decide on an incident that bothers me and choose a negative thought about myself, such as "I feel unimportant". Then I focus on the incident and the thought while the she operates the buzzers (or a T waves her fingers in front of the client's eyes). When she stops them, I tell her what image, thought or feelings I'm experiencing. I'm supposed to let my mind be free, whatever comes up is okay even if it's not about the incident. We may talk about how I wished the incident would have been different, like my Mom would have held me or something like that. We may do this for about half an hour or more.
EMDR is supposed to change your brain. I think it works though I'm still skeptical about it. My T would like to do it more with me but I'm a little afraid of it though I don't know why. You can google it for more exact information about EMDR.
Perna: thanks though I'm not sure what your point is.
kiya: thank you! Can you give me an example of changing one of my hate statements to "When I"?
rainbow_rose: thank you for the hug!
Chopin: Did you read any other of Torey's books? Send me a PM if you did, or want to say more. I'd like to discuss her and her books.
I feel a little better but still sad and I'm not sure why. Therapy stirs up an awful lot for me. Sometimes I wish I could forget it for the week in between and not think about my T at all. But each week there seems to be more and more issues to talk about.
