Why oh why?! What have I done, I Promised I wouldn't. I've done so well, it's been over a month! I cut and I am so stupid. It hurts and it's never bled so bad before, I can't stop crying I can't believe how badly I've screwed up. I promised mum I wouldn't, last time I made her cry, how could I do that!!? It's not working. It's meant to help but now it's just made me feel worse. I'm have Sui thoughts and I am so overwhelmed it's like I'm going to pass out, why oh why do I keel doing this? The scars that are left over from other times are so bold and noticeable, I hate myself every time I see them because I know they're never going to go away. Why do I keep adding to all of it? I make things worse. :'(