Aww Jess it's ok...it really is. I understand how bad you feel because you don't want to hurt your parents. You have to understand that until you have another coping mechanism that is healthy, something that will actually help & not physically hurting you...you won't be able to move pass not SI'ing. Please get in contact with your T...you need someone who can help you further. You're not a failure & you're not stupid...you're hurting. You know I'm here for you *hugs*