Guy, I understand what you are saying about not wanting to do things that your former T suggested. Let's face it this stuff isn't the only things that gay men like. I am sure you could find others gays that share your interests. I know it can be hard, especially if you are wary of people. I myself am somewhat limited socially do to my social phobia but I do have friends and acquaintences that are gay and have psych issues themselves. Heck, I even have a girlfriend (wonder of wonders). So it is possible.