I'm slipping, too---weighing myself multiple times per day, and, although I hate to admit it, am restricting AND purging (although I am trying really really hard not to purge), especially if I eat a carbohydrate (for instance, I ate a potato tonight and had a major purging freak-out). I'm sorry you're going through this, but can really relate, and see myself as a huge, out-of-shape, ugly, supposedly-woman-shaped-but-saggy/etc. person. And I can see myself as continuing down the anorexia trail, because yes--I'm losing weight, and that's what I'm working towards.... (sigh).