He's back, well sort of. He's made it clear that he wants to be back.
And while it makes NO logical sense, I want him to be back...

I love him,honestly I do,he used to be my best friend. But I doubt that he can give me what I need, and on the other hand, sometimes my needs are just plain high maintainence. So i'm very unsure about healthy v.s unhealthy expectations.

His 'dissapearing act' of November is honestly the very 1st time he's let me down in the 12yrs we've been friends, so i'm inclined to forgive him...

But idk, I really don't. Part of me feels like I'm being reeled in,scared I'm just entertainment. Other part of me knows he loves me,despite his emotional short-comings.

I know it's easier,simpler for me to be alone, but he's the guy I've been wanting since I was 15... And somehow, I've never been able to really walk away, then again,neither has he. Btw, our 'relationship' does not revolve around the physical. So no matter what lies my mind wants to cook up to protect me, I know he was never using me.

Idk, i just think that maybe we love eachother on different levels. Will that ever be enough for me?

Should I hear him out? Test the waters? Or should I run and hide until he loses interest?

I posted this here coz I knew you guys would have a better feel for this particular relationship dynamic...