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Originally Posted by Rosie23
And this is why I am so reluctant to become involved with anyone right now. I know me and I have and will drive someone crazy. And myself at the same time.
I am working to get myself in a better place where I am more confident that I have some control over my emotions. Not sure if that is possible, but I'm gonna try.
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you said it Rosie23...!
thats exactly where I am at...
I am at the awareness part of the process I guess, which is good in many ways but really hard to admit those things that make me dysfunctional....had a crap day because of all my 'awareness'...ouch!
*warning*....weird metaphor alert
I feel like I'm a plane at the airport thats not ready for take off yet, got too many mechanical problems....re-fueling and stuff like that.
even if I had the guts to fly the damn thing it would crash soon after take off.
I have to fix the mechanical problems so I can take off and stay airborne...fly straight...land...when needed...take off again.
just no crash landing screaming fireballs out of the sky anymore.