today I got very close to activating my inner drinker.

...discussions took place with madmen and psycho's in my head, and these guys are still dis-appointed in their uniquely twisted uniquely troubled me kinda way...dis-appointed that all the chatter accomplished nothing.

so I guess gratitude 4: able to reflect on this with a sober mind...instead of just being really pissed and believing I had know choice.

day at a time