my dad abused me growing up and says he did nothing wrong, and he hurt me a lot and all i ever wanted was approval from him but was never good enough. Well i have been slowly drifting him out of my life so i won't be hurt anymore. But the problem lies with my mom, who also abused me but apologized and i forgave her so now our relationship is good. problem is, she is still with that degenerate and supports him. she keeps telling me to forgive him but i cannot, and will not. if he won't own up to what he did, he doesn't deserve me. he never has deserved me. It sucks because if i went to visit my mom, i would have to see him too, and my mom says she won't visit me without him coming too. but i miss my mom i live 12 hrs away from them.

Yesterday i had surgery, and my mom told me to call her when she got off work which was at 10pm my time, to tell her how my surgery went and how I was doing. So i did, at 10:30 to give her a chance to wind down before calling. Well, my dad gets off at that time too and he wanted to go to bed right away. So the whole damn time I was trying to tell my mom how my surgery went, he kept nagging her to go to bed (he hates when he goes to bed, and gets woken up by my mom if she goes to bed at a later time). Not once did he even THINK to ask me how the crap I am after my SURGERY. Pissed me off so bad... my mom eventually said she had to go because of him.

Thats it. I am not going to tolerate his crap anymore. I hate him. And I hate how he keeps me from seeing my mom. But I have to have him a tiny bit in my life cause my family and I play Mario Kart on the Wii, online so we can play together even though we live so far away from each other. So my sister and my mom and dad and I play together. But i don't talk to my dad when we play.

Other than that, I have no father.