Glad you checked in here again! Even though you still feel as you do, it now sounds as though you are finally going to get some help. It will take some time, but you have made it this far and I believe you can make it through and find many things worth living for. What might seem pointless and empty for this minute will look different in a month from now - if not sooner.

What I don't understand is why those doctors used a lame excuse about not giving you something because it wouldn't work straight away! Gee, wouldn't we all love to have such a miracle drug!!!