Hi Myself,

Thank you for your note. At least at this point in time, I don't plan to return to the counselor to whom I was referred. Yes, I understand the points you raised. However, if I am so terrified of the counselor that I am not able to speak, then I don't see how counseling can even take place. I don't know how this can ever improve unless she magically changes gender. If I continue to go there it would be a waste of time, for both of us, and money as well. Not to mention a continuing exercise in terror.

And yes, any new counselor would be a very different person, just as we are all individuals one from another. I realize that. I just don't see the sense of making a referral that is automatically doomed to failure based on gender in this instance. If he referred me to a male counselor, I would have had a much better chance of success at making a new connection.

I think at this point I will probably stop counseling. I don't know what I was thinking. Thanks anyway.

Take care,
ErinBear