This post is to anyone who can identify -

Mother's Day this year seems especially hard for me. It just seems to serve as a reminder that I no longer have a mother or a daughter.

My mother is gone nine years.

We had tried to help an older child, who was 12 at the time, by adopting her in 2000. We were not informed of her severe emotional disturbance by the state. In retrospect I can see the adoption was doomed for this reason and a lot of other reasons before it started. In 2002, we could no longer manage her in our home, and felt our only alternative was to return her to the state.

From having in our home, I lost my corporate career with good pay and benefits. We are on the verge of bankrupcy, and some days it just hurts. This is one of them. For someone who used to make $58,000/year, and grew up in a comfortable home, this is pretty hard to accept.

I just feel alone in the world, and it's scarey and it hurts some days more than others.

I'm glad I still have my husband, and you guys. Thanks for any and all support you can give me at this time.

I hate hating Mother's Day, and don't begrudge anyone who is looking forward to a wonderful day with their Mom or children any of your happiness.

EJ