Wait...you lost me, what happened to T? You had her then you didn't...that's awful!

I did ECT when in a dark depression that just wouldn't lift. I tried tons of meds, was hospitalized several times and finally ECT. It worked at about the 4th or 5th session. THen I did monthly maintenance for a while. Been a year or so since I had it. Right now meds are working to keep the darkness at bay, thank God.

Between sessions: My T doesn't give homework, but I try really hard to accomplish 1 thing each week. That could be as difficult as bathing the dog, or as easy as a short walk outside. Just one thing. Write a letter that tries to verbalize my thoughts, paint a picture, play catch with my dog. Just something to tell myself "I did _____".