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Originally Posted by dragonfly2
There are also different degrees of mania. You could be experiencing hypomania, which is a milder form. There isn't quite the soaring mood, but more like a "really really good day", along with some of the other symptoms you've mentioned...the shopping, the sexual impulses, the excessive or inappropriate laughter...one of the big things I watch for is a lack of sleep. If I'm running around on 3 or 4 hours of sleep, feeling great and resenting even the thought of having to sleep because I have all these wonderful plans...that's a sure sign that I'm getting manic.
Were you on any antidepressants during your euphoria before your psychotic break? If not, does your current pdoc know about it? You can have symptoms of both a mood disorder and schizophrenia in something called schizoaffective disorder. But your doctor is right, technically he can't call it true mania (at least not where I live) if it only happens when you take an antidepressant. But mania (or depression) can also include psychotic features. It's a very murky pool to sort out sometimes. But I would try to take an honest look back to see if you can remember any periods of your life that your mood was, maybe not truly euphoric, but more elevated than usual and you had some of those manic behaviors. Or elevated and really really angry or agitated. Your doctor needs to know about them.
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No I was not on any kind of medications. She does know about it but she thinks it's schizophrenia alone. First after she read my symptoms ( I presented a list to her) she mentioned schizo-affective but I didn't have symptoms in front of her so she changed it back to schizophrenia.
See, three years ago I had a good job (before I had a psychotic episode). I quit it on an impulse. I decided I was having enough one day at work so I wrote my resignation letter there and then right at my desk. I didn't feel that my colleagues liked me there. I was having a horrible time, I was so miserable in that job. I remember crying in the toilets every day. The instant I quit that job my mood switched to really euphoric. My jaw hurt that day because I couldn’t stop smiling. But I’m not even sure if this is a symptom. But I noticed something odd.
Anyway, so I went on the internet and did a search online about mental illness and out came bipolar. I asked a few questions about it online on YA. I can even post a link here to my question but not sure if I’m allowed so I won’t. But I let it go and didn’t go to see anyone. 3 weeks after I quit that job I landed another really good job. This is where I had my psychotic episode. I think my mood must have escalated to that point there. Because I remember writing excessively. I really tried to stop. I cried so much because I couldn’t stop writing to this person. I wrote to him every single day, and almost every 5-15 minutes for three months. My sleep was fine thank god so I didn't write then. I really wish he had blocked me on facebook and changed his number but he didn’t. He didn’t even complain to my colleagues and just laughed it off. I HAD to leave that job.
Sorry this is long.