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Originally Posted by Lost_In_Thought
I feel very leery about posting here. I have an issue with disclosing the fact that I am DID. I am not ashamed, it's just that most people just don't understand or even believe DID is real. So I have to be cautious.
I spend 99% of my days hiding that there are others inside. It's very hard work, it takes all my strength and it's very emotionally and physically draining. In saying that, hopefully whoever reads this will understand how hard it is for me to even post here, about this subject, and be gentle...
But, that's kind of beside the point of this thread. I just wanted to throw that out there because I'm afraid of being judged or anything...
Anyway, today my T said that I will never be able to have any kind of control unless I get to know everyone that's in my system. When I asked how I am supposed to do that, he said he didn't know.
I am really,really trying to get to know everyone, but I am not making very much progress. And I feel so frustrated and discouraged with the whole thing and I feel like giving up.
It would be much easier if they all just announced themselves. But that's not the case, so I'm really not sure what to do.
Any ideas or suggestions?
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Im sorry I dont agree with your T saying you will never have any control unless you get to know your system.
point one - your statement that you can hide them 99% of the time. thats being in control. if you werent you wouldnt be able to do that.
point two- I wasnt able to get to know all my alters. I didnt have hardly any co consciousness (awareness of the alters, communication with alters, getting to know the alters, sharing with the alters...)
it is possible to work from different sides. Those that dont have consciousnesses can still work on grounding, triggers, trauma, every day life issues.. doing these will enable a non co conscious person to gaim more control over their system.