I saw a psychologist for 5 or so years in the past. I was distrustful at first, but eventually I threw all my "stuff" at him and he fielded it all pretty well. He convivnced me that my illness wasn't my fault and that my past was "bad luck" and not my fault either. Still, I left therapy to pursue alternatives for myself. I found alternatives but I found their consequences also. To cope with the consequences I went into therapy again. He is a collegue of my former psychologist and he is making me feel compfortable so far. He has helped with my relationship with my wife. He is letting me remember some painful memories. He is revealing some facts regarding my past that I haven't realized before. I think this is going to work for me. Maybe I'll be able to vanquish my inner demons, finially. Hard to believe. A future with mental health is hard for me to imagine. I wonder if it exists at all? Can anyone answer this question a bit for me? Thanks.