I have recently stopped seeing my therapist. I haven't had problems for long so she is the only one I have seen and had been seeing her for about 3 months. I am still seeing my psychiatrist for my meds etc and she is ok, but now only seeing her worries me because she is more the medicine person, if that makes sense, she will listen to how I have been feeling to a certain degree but then it becomes all about the meds, I am unable to really get into my worries/fears and gaining the tools to overcome them... (I have GAD).
Anyway, my psychiatrist stopped the therapist sessions because I was really really anxious before and after the sessions and I just felt like I was getting nowhere (I have written this in another post in the anxiety section).
She is really really nice and I get along with her so well... but I think maybe we get along too well if that makes sense, like we are too much alike... she is quite young, and I find us just mucking around all the time in sessions. She always tells me that I just think too much, that I am totally normal and that I just need to stop and relax.. which I think umm if I could do that, I would... that's why I am here, I can't!!!
It's so hard.... I feel so bad for stopping the therapy, I really don't want her to feel like she has done something wrong.
I live in Tasmania, Australia... it is soooo hard to find someone I can really feel comfortable with. I find it really hard to pay for the sessions... and it is a lot of money... I just feel I want more for what I pay.. I would like a therapist who is more supportive, who I could ring if I needed them, and talk about a lot more issues that I have felt I couldn't bring up with my other therapist. I feel like I want to start fresh, get in there and say, this is where I have been, this is what I have done... this is how I feel now... the major issues I have are..... and then work from there.... I feel I am at a different stage now where I can start working on some other stuff that may have contributed to where I have got myself now....I am not right in the anxiety state anymore where I was all over the place and not knowing what was wrong... I know know what I have, what has made it happen... but of course it still scares me, I need the tools to deal with it..... just feel like I wasn't getting that from the other therapist, she was too intimidating and silly.... that was her approach obviously, but I honesty feel like maybe I want to see a male, and someone older... for some reason!
I really struggle with money, my mum helps me out, but we cant afford to see a few and decide who I like! I just dont know how to go about it....
I just cant keep seeing the psychiatrist as therapy, she is great for meds etc, but not for me and how I feel.....
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