I've ended up forwarding some of my 'Dear T' posts to my T as well, or have started writing them in the box, and then ended up copy-pasting straight into an email to her instead, hitting 'send' somewhat on impulse (usually around 2am) and then been freaking out about what I just did. So, I know where you're at. But, I think on some level, we feel the importance of T knowing where we're coming from. Your post that you forwarded shows insight into where you're at right now, why you feel like you need to pull back. By sending this to your T you've most likely saved yourself a bunch of time and money dancing around the issue in session, with your T wondering what on earth is going on. Ts are good, but they're not mindreaders. (At least, I don't... think... they are...!)

Anyway, as embarrassing messages go, yours is barely on the scale! Don't worry