Hey,

I was at this point a few years ago, although not to this extreme extent, but I found the best thing to do was to get support from those who care. You say you have a couple of friends that you talk to, and when you do, you feel better. So why stop? I know I talked to a couple of close friends along with a trusted adult, and I always felt relieved afterwards. It may seem like you are a waste of their time, but if they are true friends, they should be more than happy to help. If you want to make sure they aren't busy, I would say something along the lines of, "May I speak with you when you have some free time?" Or any variation that sounds like something you might say.

If these feelings continue though, you may want to see a doctor if it is possible. If not, maybe a counselor would help? I'm not sure of your age, but school counselors generally do a great job; mine did.

I hope you start feeling better soon and find a way to cope with these feelings in a healthy way. My PM box is always open.

JustDontAsk