Your son sounds like an angel compared to what myself and 2 of my siblings put my parents thru during our teenage yrs. Then again, maybe you're not going into enough detail to articulate the distress, idk.

If you know you have MH problems, you need to stay pro-active. Not wait for the sh,t to hit the fan and partially blame your son for being hospitilized. That's not very responsible.

Please think about the damage you're potentially causing him with your negativity. At his age I would've thrown MYSELF under a bus if my mom didn't like me, didn't listen when I had something important to say, and couldn't wait to get rid of me. Ouch, ya know??

It's so easy to play the victim when life gets tough, don't fall into that trap. Take responsibility for yourself AND your CHILD, yes he's still a child. You don't like how he speaks to you? Be the parent in the scenario and change that. And imo, 'hell' and 'damn' is the least of your problems.

You have a child that is in danger of grievious bodily harm, address that.
Maybe you 2 need to go to therapy to learn how to re-connect, and treat EACHOTHER right...
I apologise if I come across as harsh, but seriously? Parents have no idea how they fk up their own kids, and I don't want that for your son.