Just FYI I have and they wanted to put me on anti-psychotics then I switched doctors (now one more with PTSD and a female - sorry it is hard for me to explain and too much right now) but right now they are like whatever I want to do and or try- they suggest things, and let me go look them up and then talk about it.


Also Ani-- I get the Feeling Fine and nothing is wrong with me before meds; and before therapy but then I always pit fall again or go "nuts" as some say :-|
I can see how it is going to be hard already with me if I do find that the meds work and after a while-- and staying on them that sort of sucks. But since I can see that- It is something to watch for.

Trippin- Yes Counter Attacks- Always have the counter thinking BUT i am a little off wired when that comes about for even I can think I am tricking myself which then makes things worse some times-- counter thinking is great I agree with you there- Find the facts- I a person that does that always, but when there are no cold hard facts, when you don't trust- when it is humans we are dealing with-- in reality there are no cold hard facts that can be found-- it is the lending of the ear and faith that create that "cold hard fact"..... what about actions? I think at times those too can be facts- especially if not explained or disregarded on what was the after math.

I am sorry for rambling.

I know partially I am upset with my boyfriend (he told me for about 2 years, meds may help with your mood swings) and now I go on meds for mood stabilizing and now he is like why are you taking that and not these??
He is not a doctor but he did go to school for psychology and finished 3 yars of it- so it is not like he is a numb nut- but I think part of him denies at the same time that I am messed up and he tries like any human with this issue, maybe minimize it a little.... But all I can say is that i did not want to be guinnie pig and trying all different types of meds, but that maybe what will end up happening for I am still having trouble keeping my composure and it is getting worse at work-- I do think it is a matter of time if i don't get better, I will be going off on a customer which then is auto- termination, or it is just going to get worse with co-workers that they will push me out.... and i can not do that lose my job.. I try so hard, I even go out side and scream some times... but try to keep composure...

Thank you all-- I will stick out this Lamictal see what happens I just don't want to be a zombie walking around (dull and all)....