Wow! Ive had similar thoughts... But ill never be comfortable as a boy, as I love being wirh mine... But I can say I hope you get the help u need to be YOU...

Besides long hair, im maaculine. I will take down a man when my mania kicks in... Im not afraid to tackle anyyhing. I do have to say though that im happy being masculine, and yet a female. I really hope you guys find your spot in this crazy world... Good luck!