there are several things I consider to be important at the moment...

I will begin at the end!

6: hmmmm what was that about?
5: it's great I didn't go ridiculous on the forum
4: with my alcoholic brain.
3: something inside me just said yes
2: to alcohol
1: I had a drink.

now working in reverse...

1: bothering me for days I am sick of this discomfort in my head.
2: if I wait long enough like three days it won't seem so desperate.
3: and this control surely will be available after I imbibe
4: well I am already there and the transformation has taken place
5: can I remember why I did this?
6: feeling bad is not possible now and that was deliberate