I think you absolutely need to get treatment for your depression. I defiantly think you need outpatient though.

I don't know how to put this without sounding horrible, because by no means am I trying to be mean and inconsiderate.

basically I think that the reason you have not been put as high priority is because in the eyes of mental health professionals you are doing well. I'm not saying you don't need help, I'm just saying you need to find help from your GP who can get you a therapist or something rather than actually going to somewhere people go when they are in crisis and cannot stay safe themselves.

so for a lot of people you seem to be doing well because you are functioning, even though you are REALLY struggling and do need support and not functioning well, you are still functioning.

I guess I'm saying this because when I had a team meeting last week my psychiatrist said that what I should see as possible in terms of recovery is not to be 'better' but to be able to function. basically to be able to get through the days without SH and suicide attempts and that all the thoughts and feelings would still be there and I wouldn't 'feel better' but I'd be able to function. because me or my family thinking I'll be 'better' and able to live 'normally' is not realistic.

so I absolutely can see that you are really struggling and I really hope that you can get some support. I just don't think going to somewhere that deals with crisis' is the best way for you to get help because they staff there will see you as not needing emergency intervention and therefore will make you wait and wait.

I hope this hasn't upset you.

and I hope you are managing to find some support to help you feel better.